To Future Life Partner

Dear Wife

Your beauty blinds me because it comes from your heart and it is reflected in your eyes.
I wonder how I couldn’t notice such a magnificent flower like you before.
You are beautiful, you made me believe that this world is worth living in.
Your beauty captures me, but what amazes me is that it is wonderfully combined with your amazing soul.
There is nobody more beautiful in this world that a woman in love, so there is nobody more beautiful than you.
Magic is when I see ur eyes and the feel the spark between the hearts. You are wonderful
Do you know which thing I like the most about you? That you are beautiful inside and out.
Even if I were blind, I could still see your beauty, because it is in your soul and it can be seen only with a heart.
When you go, you turn heads, I am so lucky to have you
It’s a pity it’s impossible to hold a beauty contest among the angels because then you would have won.
In my eyes, you are the most beautiful and tender woman in the whole world. I love you.
Your beauty cannot be ignored, it is something unbelievable because it not only pleases my eyes but also warms my heart.
Even if you do not believe that you are beautiful, look into my eyes and you’ll be surprised by your pretty reflection.
To wake up every morning and to see your beautiful smile is the sense of my life. You are fantastic.
Everything and everyone in this world can be replaced except you, my Dream wife!
Still, I can’t understand how God could create such an ideal woman like you, you are perfect from the toes to the head.
Even thousands of orchids can’t compare to your beauty, you are unique.
Your soul is like an ocean, it doesn’t matter how deep I dive into your depths, I will never reach the bottom.
Never forget that you are a talented, amazing, and wonderful woman in the world.
Even when you are sad, remember that you are beautiful and the whole world is yours.
You are beautiful, for me, you are the best woman in the world.
Let each your day start with words: “I am beautiful, I am lucky, I deserve the best in this world”.
Each side of your appearance and each trait of your character are beautiful

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Posted by on July 11, 2019 in random thoughts



It hurts to love someone and not be reciprocated, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to tell that person how you feel. Maybe God wants us to know a few wrong people before meeting the right person, to finally know when, know how to be grateful for this wonderful gift. One of the saddest things in life is when you meet someone who means everything and just to realize that in the end it was not for you and you have to let go. When the door of happiness closes, another door opens, but sometimes we look so long that door was closed, we do not see that has opened before us. It is true that we know what we have until we lose it, but it’s also true that we do not know what we’ve been missing until it arrives. Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that you will include, but not expect to be appropriate; only expected to grow love in the heart of the other person, but does not grow is happy that grew in yours. There are things you’d love to hear you never hear it from the person who you would have said them, but do not be so deaf not to hear of him who says from his heart. Never say goodbye if you still want to try. Never give up if you feel you can keep fighting. Never tell a person who already do not love if you can not let go. Love comes to those who wait, but they have disappointed those who still believe, although it has been betrayed; one who still need love, but has been hurt before and who has the courage and faith to build trust again. The beginning of love is to let those we know to be themselves and not treat them to turn to our own image, because then we will love only the reflection of ourselves in them. Do not go outside, this can fool you, do not go for wealth because even that is lost; go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day shine. I hope


Posted by on May 4, 2019 in random thoughts


A wanderer in the wilderness

I have been scrolling through my previous blog entries for a couple of days now, even those dating back from three years ago. Who would have thought I would be so different now from the Boy I used to be?

There was just so much anger. I never thought I’d say this but I really was a very much ignored . After reading those entries, I decided to just delete a lot of them. Mainly because I realized I was so stupid when I decided to write them. I was a teenager. There was just too much angst, so much emotion and too little experience. It felt like I was a stranger going through somebody else’s personal notes. It felt so foreign to me that I can’t even remember writing some of them and even worse, why I wrote them. But where I should have felt shame, there was pride.

Stagnant. That would be the perfect word to describe my life if someone would have asked me a few days ago. After looking back and really reliving the emotions that heedlessly consumed me during the darkest days of growing up, I came to think that I did get somewhere. That the current of life led me where I am today. This may not be the destination that I wanted myself to be in three years ago but knowing that I’m somewhere is actually better than the thought of being nowhere. And knowing that I am nowhere near where I used to be makes it feel alright.

People would usually say that ‘God has plans’. Before, I would have said at the back of my mind that yeah, God has plans because that one time He gave you a chance to plan for yourself, you screwed it up. Seeing my former self with different eyes now changed the way I see everything I’ve been through. Maybe I was destined to feel pain so that I would know what happiness would feel like. What if God wanted me to feel alone so that I could appreciate the people who would come my way? What if indeed there was a plan?

I may not see it now but maybe someday I’d get to finish the story of my life and when I get the chance to read it, I’ll see commas I’ll realize that the pauses in every sentence I made were not meant to make my story incomprehensible, but to the contrary, they made it even more meaningful.

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Posted by on April 12, 2019 in random thoughts


A Big Thanks To You All

Thank you lovelies.

I may not reply to all the coments much , but they mean so much to me i can’t even put into words. I always loved writing and actually started posting them . I remember every single second i’ve spent writing down whatever I have. All the pain and hurt and sadness comes right back at me when I read what i wrote because I remember every reason I wrote it and I kept writing because it helped through a lot! It helped me get everything out of my heart and put all my emotions in words and it got easier for me to accept things once I read whats on my mind on a paper. I never really think of myself to be any good at this, nor would i ever classify myself as a. Good writer and I really hate when people compare them self with me i know that I am not that gud in writing . I just write because I love to, because it’s my passion and I want people to know that whatever they are going through, they are not alone. You lovelies, I mean… you all make my day with your comments and messages. How you all love what I write and appreciate it and relate to it and support me. It makes my bad days good and good days a thousand times better. I come here and read everything you all have ever written to me because it makes me smile this big huge smile! And i feel appreciated and good about something for once. I remember how i once lost all hope and i got the cutest words coming from you all, it was one of the best thing. For all this, i literally can not thank you all enough for the little things that matter the most.
I love you all so much

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Posted by on March 4, 2019 in random thoughts


Will You Marry Me

He sat on the shore and let the saline air hit his face and body. The blue light being scattered away, the sky was filled with a red orange glow. The sun was setting into the horizon, creating quiet a scene that no one could resist looking at the beauty of it.

But, his eyes were not looking at the wonderful sight, they were actually staring into the distance. His thoughts were filled with her, her smile, her eyes, her visage. He shook his head trying to clear his mind. “Enough is enough”, he thought.
His vision now not being blinded by his thoughts, he tried to chew in his surroundings. He noticed the light blaze in the dusking sky. It looked like the light was slowly fading, taking away all the beauty from the sky. Something made him metaphorize this to his own life. His thoughts immediately drifted to her. He imagined how his sky would be if his light faded away. The anxiety and the insecure feeling that came from this thought made him realize what a fool he was to let her go. He glanced at his watch, he still had like 15min to reach her, before she left town for college. “If she leaves before I reach her, that’s it she’s gone forever “, he thought. He stood up on his feet, tightened his shoe laces and started running. He ran like his life depended on that. Who is he kidding? Of course, his life depended on it, she was his life. He did not slow down his pace, until he saw the blue Corolla parked outside the gate. He finally saw her, trying with great effort to lift the huge luggage to put it in the trunk. He walked towards her, trying not to attract any attention.
“Lemme do it”, he told and gently grabbed the bag from her hand. She turned around after giving out a loud squeak, shock taking over her beautiful face. He placed the bag on the trunk and looked at her.
“What are you doing here?”, she questioned him, placing her hands on her hips and adding an extra effect to the dramatism.
“Came to see you of course”, he told in a very casual tone with a pinch of desperation in it.
“I thought we….”, she started
“Ended things, I know”, he cut in.
He felt that there was no time to waste or any chances to take. He thought the only option was to do something which would swipe her off her heel. He bent on his knee and held her hand.
“Sweetheart, I know we are terrible for each other. I know we fight every living hour. I also know that this would continue. But I also happen to know that, I am crazily, madly and uncontrollably in love with you and you know why? It’s ‘cuz of the fights we have and the way the intensity of our love grows with each and every fight. I know this is too much but I also happen to know one more thing. I wanna spend my life with you. I want you by my side every single day. I wanna marry you. So please, will you marry me?”, he finished his proposal without a pause and looked at her. He noticed her eyes turn glossy. She opened her mouth as if to say something, but hesitated.
“I’m sorry, I don’t have a ring right now”, he added and looked at her, expectantly. She bent down and slowly, smoothly, swiftly placed her lips over his. Well, that’s all he needed for an approval!


Posted by on February 20, 2019 in random thoughts


Happy Valentine’s Day

“You and me, together forever.” I read the caption and laughed. It was my friend’s picture with his girlfriend on instagram. It was like the four time I saw him post the same caption.The highlighting part
was that it were with four different girls.
I could see the new generation arriving with a new lifestyle and which will lead to a new topic to discuss in the near future. “Boyfriend/Girlfriend – A boon or a bane?” Lol! Just kidding!
Fine, where do I start? Okay, let’s start with the most used word in the world. Love!
Love? Is it too much to handle for an individual? I haven’t had any opinion like that before. But slowly I’ve started to stay with that comment or whatever. It has become a necessity to every youngster to have a girlfriend/boyfriend simply because his/her friend has one. I would rather call this sheer stupidity. A couple of question that haunts me so much is, Why such quick and immatured moves in life at an age, where the world is so vast to learn and explore? Why search for a mate to just pass your time? Why get deep into a relationship and get physical in a short span of time?
Let me make it clear that I am not against love. I am a kind of a person who worships that feeling. And I strongly believe that its divine. Because if my mom can show the same amount of love for 28 years, from her womb, (it has never decreased and will never ever come down) it ought to be divine. But I have seen some really good relationships that ends on a happy note. They understand each other so well that their affair stays like a carbon-carbon bond; Extremely strong and impossible to seperate. Love is also something that is universal and common to everyone. If I have a sister/brother who likes, support, and care about me that is a form of love. A Dad putting his hand on his son/daughter’s shoulders and giving him moral support; That is also love. If your dog wags his tail and licks your face, it is also love. That is why people brand love as “pure and divine”. My question is, “Why spoil such a holy thing with your infatuation?” “Why bring a bad name to it and make parents believe that its worse than their own life problems?” “Why spoil a boy’s/girl’s life with bad intuitions?”
Cons apart, to all those lovely couples out there, Happy happy happy Valentines day. Wish you all happiness and tons of love so that you still stay crazily in love with rach other. Its like cooking people. You just need to follow and add the correct ingredients; Small fights, null egos and lots of love.
To all fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, uncles, aunts and yeah, also to all my amazing FRIENDS. Valentines day wishes. Lets spread Love, Love and only Love. Adios!


Posted by on February 14, 2019 in random thoughts


Moment of Love

Time freezes, the world stops and life momentarily ceases to exist.. Everyone and everything seems to disappear and all that is left is you and I.. Nothing else seems to matter anymore, nothing else seems important.. As I stand here frozen somewhere between space and time I begin to crave your body, I wish to make it mine.. As you strip for me and lay back on the bed a million nasty thoughts of what I’m about to do to you run swiftly through my head.. You motion me to come closer with your finger and bite your lip, and I try my best not to become lost in your eyes. As I rip my clothes off and crawl onto the bed positioning my hips right between your thighs. Forcing your legs up in the air a bit so your feet wrap around my waist. I lean down to kiss your lips and you wrap your arms around my neck pulling me in closer, I kiss my way down to your neck making my way to your chest.. Teasing you with my tongue, sucking them causing them to become erect. I feel you start to whine your hips against mine, teasing me with your wetness I feel it and start to throb and become stiff between my legs. Longing, craving to be inside of you.. I take your hands and lock your fingers together so I can pin your arms above your head with one hand, and with the other, I reach down and start to guide myself in your tight, dripping aquafina. At first driving you crazy as I tease you with just the tip, flicking it back and forth stimulating your already sensitive clit.. As I penetrate you I reach up and grab your neck forcing you to look me in my eyes, careful not to blink even for a second so I can see the expression on your face as I go deeper inside you slowly, forcing you to take every inch.. You resist the urge to roll your eyes back and all you can do is moan and bite your lips.. As I press my hips up against the back of your thighs reaching as deep as I can go I lean in to kiss your lips once more, thrusting myself slowly in and out of your tight pussy and every time I do I feel your walls clench a little tighter around my cock.. Your arms still wrapped around my neck I feel your nails dig deep into my flesh, the pain mixed with pleasure is enough to drive me insane, I feel myself losing control.. Lifting your legs back more bending your knees till they touch your chest, my hands gripping tightly on the back of your thighs as I keep looking in your eyes increasing the speed and length of my strokes.. Your moans get louder until they turn to screams, my name escaping from your lips when you can no longer hold it in.. “Fuck Baby keep going just like that baby you’re gonna make me cum, this Sugar Walls is gonna cum for you ..” Like music to my ears your words simply run right through me almost as if you aren’t speaking to me at all, but instead speaking to my soul.. Leaning into you again to kiss your lips one last time, your legs pressed back still, your body trapped underneath me and completely at my mercy.. Its as if the spark of our kiss ignites a fuse and the countdown to your release begins.. Your legs begin to shake and your nails dig deeper into my skin, your moans slip out from between our lips locked together and you flex every muscle in your body.. Everything stops, my heart feels as though for a moment it does not beat, and then it happens, you release..My head on your chest, feeling your heart beat so fast as if it is trying to escape from your body.. Using the last of your strength to wrap your arms around me and run your fingers through my hair.. As I kiss and lick the sweat from your skin, still trying to catch my breath as I breath you in.. My lips pressed firmly against your flesh my eyes closed but I do not fall asleep, I’d rather stay awake and enjoy the warmth if your embrace, this is better than my dreams..

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Posted by on January 22, 2019 in random thoughts

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