Happiness is going to find you many times throughout your life. It will greet you like an old friend, and you will talk for hours about all of the beautiful memories you have shared before it has to run to catch its train or make it home in time for dinner. See, happiness is going to find you many times throughout your life, but happiness will also leave.
Happiness will leave to help you grow, to help you feel things it only ever would have masked within you. You will learn how to befriend your sadness, you will learn to let it hold you. You will learn that you could not rely on happiness in certain areas of life, that it simply did not fit into the experiences that grew their lessons from grieving and heartache. Sadness will lace its fingers between yours, it will hold your hand and tell you that it understands your pain, that it understands your need to simply come to terms with your anguish and your remorse. Sadness will invite all of your demons out to lunch, it will make you talk to them, it will make you sit across from them and look into their eyes. Sadness will make you face yourself.
Then, after days, or months, or years, after lessons have tangled themselves around your questions, after understanding has melted into your skin, you will hear a familiar knock within your chest. You will feel a familiar sense of Spring thawing within your ribcage, laughter will no longer crack within your throat. Slowly, but surely, happiness will tiptoe back into your life. It will sneak through a window you didn’t realize was open, it will tuck itself with the wind to greet you on a rainy day. It will hide within the ink of your favourite book, dance within the melody of your favourite song. Happiness will thrive within the spaces between seconds, between the horizon and the sky. You will find it at the bottom of coffee cups, in the salt of the sea. You will appreciate its presence, you will feel its warmth.
Yes, happiness leaves; but when it comes back you are always stronger, for you have understood what it means to make it out of the wreckage, you have learned how to survive in the dark